LIFE: EMBRACING THE CHUB
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I think my diet can be easily summed up by the fact that I'm writing this one handed,one hand is typing, and the other is currently going between my mouth and a nearly empty pack of Fruit Pastilles. Its quiet obvious to see,  I love eating, I love food, I love going out to eat, I love trying new foods, I just really enjoy everything to do with food. Up until the age of about 20 I've always been slim but "big", I've never been petite, I've always had broad shoulders and chunky hips and thighs, I was a UK size 8 at one point but I still had real thunder thighs. At this moment in time I am 23 years old, I weight over 12 stone (I haven't weight myself in months and I don't plan on changing that), and I'm wearing a size 12/14 on top and a size 16 on my bottom, and I'm the happiest I've been in years.

I lost a lot of weight a few years ago, I was working in a toxic job, I argued with my boyfriend on a weekly basis, I was so low in myself that I would go for a whole day without eating any more than a slice of bread because I was too sad to eat. I felt sick to my stomach because I was so depressed. I was skinny, but I was more miserable and unwell than I have ever been before in my life. Thankfully I got a new job eventually and I was given the correct medication, and my mental state went back to "normal", feeling more like myself again and feeling comfortable with my life, I managed to get my appetite back. In the last 2 years I have been the happiest and most content that I have ever felt in my life, I'm totally happy and comfortable in my relationship, I've met people who have changed my life, I've travelled, I've enjoyed live music, I've learnt how to enjoy my own company. Oh, and I've gained over 3 stone, oops. I may have gained weight, but I'm not "fat", I'm not overweight, I'm not unhealthy, I'm just not ill anymore, yet I still get more comments about my weight gain than I do about that fact that I look happier. I find it really sad that some people are still more concerned about peoples appearance than their mental well being, I think that as long as you are healthy and happy that no one has any right to comment about your body, people are totally entitled to their opinions, but at the end of the day you are the only person who should really care about how your body looks.  Just because someone is not the "ideal weight" does not mean that they are miserable or unhappy with how they look, personally I know that I am chubby because I allow myself to eat food that I enjoy, I don't punish myself for letting myself eat a box of cheesy chips every now and again, if it makes me happy and is not causing me any harm, then I don't see any problem with that. I totally think that the same applies the other way, just because someone is smaller doesn't mean they are unhealthy or miserable, their weight doesn't have to be the defining factor of someones happiness or health.

I fully understand that not everyone feels this way, not everyone is happy with their body and that is fine, if you're unhappy with something about yourself then either work towards changing it, or work to embrace it. Do what makes you happy and remember that your weight does not define you. Thanks for reading X